This whole year has been a season. It has been a season of trusting the Lords voice over what I\’m physically seeing.
I talk a lot about the season I\’m in now, but I sometimes don\’t think about the season I was in right before this one, or the season I was in right before that. This whole year has literally been a year of me listening to Gods voice over EVERYTHING.
Right after I rebranded my esthetics business (mid 2024), God told me to close it. Close it and take a few clients at home. Took a huge financial hit, but Ok, I did that.
Right after that, I went through a tumultuous season with 1 of my children. Alongside that, at the same time, my mother was having multiple signs of dementia. We saw it but it wasn\’t diagnosed. Back & forth to doc appointments for the both of them. I could honestly say at that time, that combination of things was the hardest thing I\’ve ever been through in my life. Through that, God still said move. I questioned it every day, because, how Lord, with all this going on. But obedience, so I did that too. My youngest daughter & I moved. I thought, ok Lord, I\’ve been obedient to the things you\’ve asked of me, so I know once we get here it\’s going to be great. Well it wasn\’t.
God got us here & as soon as we were here, straight into the wilderness I went. Lol. I have to laugh because even still, as I\’m sitting here on my balcony. I\’m obeying Gods voice by writing this blog post. A blog that I don\’t know what or who I\’m writing it for. Obedience, yet again. There are many other instances of me obeying Gods voice, but these are some of the big ones.
Even in the uncomfortableness of all these situations, I have a trust in the Lord that not only will He provide, but He will prosper me. He will keep me. He will never leave me nor forsake me. I know that my obedience will pay off. I\’m not even obedient for the \”reward\” but I\’m obedient because I\’ve come to trust His will over my own. I trust His plan for my life over my plan.
Yes, I struggle sometimes with it. A lot actually. I told yall, I\’m in my closet sounding like David a lot of the times, lol but I\’m always brought back to that fact that I\’d rather be in the Lord\’s will & not mine.
The enemy doesn\’t like that so he will try & mess with me. Try to put thoughts of doubt, fear, & insecurity, even depression in my mind. But I\’m always brought back to Gods word. Not only what He\’s promised me personally, because the enemy will try to make you question that too. But to the promises he\’s fulfilled for Moses, and Abraham, & Sarah, & Jacob and the multitude of others in the bible.
I serve the SAME GOD as them and if he did it for them, He will do it for me.
Like I said, I\’m not sure who or what this is for, but let this be a reminder, to keep going. If you are in the Lord\’s will, and have been obedient to his voice. Keep going. There is something to be said about your obedience and the faith it takes for you to walk in it. We will be rooting for each other as I\’m walking this out in real time.
\”For we walk by faith, not by sight\” – 2 Corinthians 5:7