I have no idea what I\’m supposed to be writing.
I don\’t know what I\’m doing. I don\’t know where I\’m going. I just don\’t know.
Have you ever been in a space where if felt like your hands were tied? Does it feel like that now? I know it does for me. Everything that could be happening, is happening. Well, maybe not everything, but you get it. Distractions everywhere.
I was talking to a close friend of mine about vision. The vision the Lord has given us for our lives and not the one created by our own understanding. That vision that\’s in His will. And I have been feeling like, I don\’t know what my vision is anymore, but she begged to differ.
So I asked her what she thought my vision is. She told me. And she was right. I just didn’t recognize it because it didn’t look like what I imagined. But it was still vision.
One of them was living in Dallas. I don\’t know if I\’ve told y\’all, but MY plan was to move to California – not Dallas. I LOVE Cali, but God put it on my heart to move here. The seed was planted September 2023 – it came to fruition August 2026.
I almost discredited that because of what life looks like now that I\’m actually living it out. It didn’t match the picture in my head, so I viewed it through a skewed lens. But it still proves this: when God gives vision, He also gives provision.
And He\’s given me more vision since then, so big that I am struggling to believe it. \”Theres no way that vision is for me, that\’s too big Lord.\” \”That\’s probably just my imagination\” \”There\’s no way that would happen for me.\”
My unbelief shows up as feeling stuck, confused, and constantly asking God what I\’m supposed to be doing. Even though He already gave me the vision and the strategy.
That\’s fear-based disobedience.
But God reminds me:
“I did not give you a spirit of fear.” (2 Timothy 1:7)
“Be strong and courageous.” (Joshua 1:9)
“I will give you the desires of your heart.” (Psalm 37:4)
“My word will not return to me void.” (Isaiah 55:11)
“I am doing a new thing — don’t you perceive it?” (Isaiah 43:19)
I must perceive it. The vision is the new thing. It\’s going to look different than the old thing – different than what I imagined. But because God gave me that desire, He will do everything in His will to bring it to pass. No matter the circumstance.
I can be strong and courageous in moving forward with it because His word never returns to Him void.
I just gotta obey and follow.