Today marks six months of living in Dallas.
I wish that I could say it\’s been the best decision I\’ve ever made, but I don\’t feel like that yet. I honestly wonder if I ever will. But it has been the biggest leap of faith I\’ve ever taken and probably the most major act of obedience I\’ve followed through on. It may very well end up being the best decision I\’ve ever made… I just can\’t see it yet.
I don\’t know what Gods plan for me is here. I\’m constantly searching and seeking His voice about it, but I haven\’t felt like he\’s revealed it to me. Maybe He will. Maybe He won\’t. I don\’t know.
But here\’s what I do know:
I don\’t make enough money to pay my bills, but the Lord has provided.
I don\’t have a car, but I make it to work every day.
I didn\’t know anyone here, but I\’ve built a small community.
I didn\’t have a job when I got here, yet I\’m working almost full-time.
And in the midst of so much uncertainty, I feel at peace…
… that\’s nothing but the hand of God.
Making the decision to fully lean on God is not an easy one. Well. I take that back. The decision was easy, walking it out is hard.
There are so many days I want to take matters into my own hands. Then I remember: Gods plan for me supersedes any plan of my own. His plan is bigger than anything I could ever create for myself.
So, when I\’m confused or frustrated about the way God is moving in my life, especially in this season. I have to remind myself that His ways are not my ways.
Isaiah 55:8-9 – For my thoughts are not your thoughts, and your ways are not my ways. – This is the Lords declaration. For as heaven is higher than earth, so my ways are higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts.
My human understanding can only go so far. My vision can only see what\’s right in front of me. But God is omnipotent (all powerful), omnipresent (present everywhere), and omniscient (all knowing). God is in total control, aware of every detail, and present in every moment.
Proverbs 3:5-6 – Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not rely on your own understanding. In all your ways know Him, and He will make your paths straight.
So, while this journey has been difficult. I\’m finding my will to keep going in the Lord. Remembering that He is everything good, even when it doesn\’t feel like it. The stretching, the tears, the uncertainty… it will all work out for my good. He\’s building my endurance. Building my faith. And building my relationship with Him in this walk.
So, cheers to 6 months.
And if you\’re walking through hard things with the Lord, cheers to you too!